Hold on,
Hold on to me ,
Cause I'm a little unsteady,
A little unsteady,
...
If you love me, don't let go,
If you love me, don't let go .
- Unsteady by X Ambassadors
Forgive, forget and forward. Forgive is termed for becoming vulnerable again. Forget is used to justify the pain. Forward.. well that's where I am stuck. These terms speaks louder when we are at a stage where we want to stay trapped but the current of resistance is no longer strong enough. I'm trapped. I feel stuck. I have faced the piercing vulnerability by forgiving. The dagger that left my heart left a wound. A wound marked as the bullseye. Everything leads to the dead center and ready to seize where once the blade fits. I had to let it go, to become unsteady. Or it would have penetrate deeper as time decays and rust what's left of this uncleaned heart. So I let vulnerability win over resistance to enter the window of healing. Justification comes to ease and coat the void but not to fill. As the vulnerability springs, strength is built and love is found again as I have nothing that holds me back. But...
Forward.. why do I still feel a little unsteady? It is forgiven and forgot, yet forward becomes backwards. I come back to a place of desire. I seek again the hopelessness. I look down again at the shatter pieces. I cling to the broken edge of this fainted picture. And I say again , if you love me don't let go.
