The "Fall" Back

As I look into Autumn and the full scale of the season, I can't help but think about the different things that have set me back from going forward. The times when I felt shameful of who I was becoming. The times I felt unworthy of a loving family. The times I felt as if this desire I have is not worth fighting for. The times I felt as if the dryness will never be quenched. The times I felt this list of setbacks will go on and on. Like Sir Issac Newton, the ambiguous apple that fell on his head and it spring forward a cascade of thoughts leading him to think of himself in the world filled with what we called today:"gravity".

Sometimes I wonder if that apple never fell on Sir Issac Newton's head, will the concept of gravity still exist? The answer I came to known is: "OF COURSE, Katie, the concept of gravity has always existed but it wasn't until we defined it and made it understood to our little brains that it became significant to us to understand the world around us." So who are we to define what we want to know and what is made unknown to us?

My mind is small and I believe that the beauty within that is the expansion of it through time

. more and more . 

God is beyond my understanding but each day I find a little more of Him as He fills my small mind 

. again and again . 

So, why do I still feel as if I am setting myself back? 

Because I am filling my small mind with who I think I can be and who I think I should be.

more and more I think, I lose who I know I am. 

again and again God remind me what He thinks of me. 

Each day, I have to remember who is my healer, why I am more deserving of LOVE, what makes me proud of myself, how to keep fighting and ultimately who defines me. 

So, more and more as we fall back lets keep opening our small minds to Him again and again. 

Love , 

Katie Liang